I have a friend who I’ve confided in that’s a psychologist. Sooner or later, he reverts back to this guy who becomes a stranger to me. Examples include kissing, petting and all that.īut the behavior never lasts. And for a little while, it seems like he tries to be more gentle. When I’ve talked to him about this in the past, he’s taken the issue seriously. It’s like he’s incapable of being gentle or even a little sensitive. But every time he’s topped me, it’s always been brutal and rough. I should say here that I don’t mind when Dillon breeds me. Brutal doesn't mean I don't like breeding Once he was done, it was like the trance was over and he returned to his normal, sweet self. The entire thing ended only after he seeded me. While I don’t remember every word of it, he said something like this (which is typical of how it always is): Again, it was almost like he was in some type of a trance. The weird thing is that while he was doing it, I could see his eyes roll up into the back of his head. All I could do is watch him top me as I screamed through his palm. That’s because he covered my mouth up with his hand and put me into a choke-hold. When I started to yell, he told me to just stay still. The only way I can describe it is like he became someone else. When I told Dillon what he was doing was painful, it almost seemed like he didn’t hear it. Also, the way the guy enters you also matters. But if you’ve been bottoming for any amount of time, you know that lube is important. Now look guys – I am a bottom so it’s not like I don’t like getting pounded. Never mind I hadn’t prepared ( aka cleaning up). Then, without asking, he thrust it up my hole and starts pumping me. So while he’s on top of me, he pulls out his d**k and spits on it. Spontaneous fun has its place, you know? But it’s what happened next that is typical of how he can be. Without saying anything, he yanked my shorts down and got on top of me. I think I was watching some rerun of Law and Order, getting lost in the plot.Īfter he walked through the door from the gym, he threw his bag down and walked over towards my direction.
Last week while I was watching TV on the couch, he tore me up. What’s more, some of the things he says when he’s pounding me out are just downright mean.Įxample. That said, every single time he’s penetrated me, he’s done it in an animalistic type way. I’m saying this because whenever I’ve told him to stop, he immediately complies. I want to preface all of this by saying he doesn’t sexually assault me. Whenever Dillon tops me, he’s kind of brutal. But in order to write this, I need to keep it real. Some may find that boring and that’s cool. But when it comes to penetration, it’s just not his thing.Īll of this is completely OK with us. That’s not to say he only tops because he does engage in oral (giving and receiving). For as long as I’ve been active, I’ve gravitated towards the bottom side of the bunk. It's just that a long time ago I decided that if a guy was into PNP, it probably wasn’t a good match.Īnyway, the real point about this post is our sex life. On that last part, please don’t think I’m judging.